it always takes a while for me to update this site for some strange reason now a days. i guess its bc i really dont have much to say anymore, i cant write its like i stumbled upon the largest writers block i have ever had. i turn out one song every few months but oh well its not that i dont care its more like i really dont give a fuck persay, pardon the french.

so what is new in my life? well on semester done for this year and in all honesty i raped all my classes. i had the best semester i have ever had so that is good. ive been quite busy but it feels as if my time with friends is being stretched between two separate groups. the one group always chastises me [as if i am their son] when i hang out with the other group, and the other group doesnt really give a fuck when i hang out with group a, i think they really dont like them that much. but i always feel guilty when i dont hang out with the one group


i recently started dating again which is wonderful after a few failed crushes. love life is never really my strong suit. i made a few mistakes over the course of the semester with women, some bad choices and some stupid actions that my friends all know about but i really dig this girl im with now and i havent seen her at all this winter break [she ironically lives right down the road from me] she has been in florida/boston all break and says she really doesnt like being home and doesnt want to come home and im not going to be like bitch you have to come home but i would kill to see her, oh well what can you do not much eh? i miss her like crazy and have had the notions to drink liquor every once in a while when i am alone bc i feel kinda down

on another note i had only one shift this whole break and that was on xmss which i called out bc i really didnt want to go at all bc it was fucking gay instead i decided to go to my aunts house where my bitch of a mother is. yeah not smart bc my mother did jack shit, she doesnt care about us at all. [im not going to complain about what she got me as if it was a bad thing but there was no thought] she just threw money in a card and wrote what she always writes in her cards and threw two bags of candy in a bag with an ornament that was meant for my brother [it was sports oriented i dont like sports shows how well she knows me] and she refused to sign a check that my dad promised would go to their kids' educations [they are divorced if you couldnt tell] she wants at least half of it and its fucking gay as shit

oh well sorry for the rant, hope you all have had a lovely holiday and have a nice safe happy sober new year